The Grass Is Always Greener...

 On the other side... Right?! 

Or maybe the grass is just Blue. This seems to be what I am figuring out. Everyone's grass is a completely different color. 

Whether you admit it or not at some point in life you've looked at another persons life and said, "man, if I only I had what they have. You know the list. It's constant and the list goes on and on. I've heard more times than a few that my life is so luxurious and people actually wish to have my life... And all I could think is- You PEOPLE are bat stink cray! I spent the majority of baseball season last year wanting everyone around me outside my "baseball friends" group to know my life was not that cool. That although I got to go to cool parties, get dressed up, not have a "normal" 9-5 job and go to baseball games whenever I wanted that this life also came with complications to say the least. I would tell anyone who wanted to listen or even allowed me to speak that my husband is on the road 50% of the time, we leave our family and friends every year to pursue a dream that can end in the blink of an eye, the friends we make out here get sent up, down and around faster than I can change underwear and not to mention we have no idea what life looks like from week to week. I have to live out of a suitcase in order to maintain a healthy marriage, be in cities, hotels, and cabs alone A LOT.I harped on the fact that our lives weren't normal and oh so badly we wanted to be normal.. And all I had at the end was stress. It came to kill, steal and destroy. Sound familiar? #Satan 

Anyone who knows us would say we are far from normal. So why was I so in love with trying to berate "my life". Being a "baseball wife" comes with some stereotypes and I HATE stereotypes. So I fought them... 

There was and still sometimes is a huge part of me that feels guilt. Guilt because we know people think have have money for days, 3 homes, travel whenever we want, go to events with really cool rich people and not to mention Robbie plays a game for a living. Yes that's how it looks on paper. But I can assure you life is all how you look at it. We have plenty and God takes care of us - 2 mortgages and all (hear my sarcasm) but what I have found out is that while I looked at all those Normal People's lives they weren't happy either. They wanted something different too. And that's how I have come to know that my grass is blue. Right now it's Texas rangers blue and red. But this is just a season. Everyone's grass is a different color. God has blessed us all with special gifts and talents and placed us in areas of life he knows only you can handle. He knows that the 22 year old Christian girl with a "rebels for life" tattoo could live no other life than that of living in 3 different states a year, having 3 dogs and counting, and a husband who can't even find his wallet most days yet somehow can throw a baseball with 99% accuracy. I want so desperately for everyone to start loving their life. Take risks people. Make mistakes. God made us human for a reason. Embrace the human inside. Enjoy all the GREATNESS in your own life and ignore all the rest. There's no room for guilt. There's no room for envy. 

We are all just a bunch of souls striving for greatness. 

Robbie and I are blessed beyond reason. We are rich with the love of our family and friends. This is the life He has given us and we love it❤ 

He>i

Xox 

B