Just got to the OC. I've been traveling a lot lately and using that as an excuse for not writing and blogging. I sat next to a writer on my flight today. Things were just magical. He was asking my opinion on a lifestyle architect book he is writing. I eventually found out he is the father of a minor league ball player. He came up with this idea that I should write a book. After two hours of picking his brain we came up with some great ideas and I think I'm going to try it! But before I do I have got to get better at blogging and sharing. Turns out I don't have to be that good of a speller to write a book either. Obvi- that was my first concern when he suggested it. Can you believe that? Who would of thunk!?
Ha! I laughed. I am no writer, I said. You should see my blog. Spelling is not my favorite thing to do. He told me it didn't matter. His sons girlfriend who is just as lost as I was being a minor league girlfriend and fiancé needs a book written by someone who has been through it. And so do all the other minor league girlfriends and wives. And the fans want an insight into the players lives and sometimes... Well most times the wife is the closest thing they will get.
I love love love this idea. All I ever wanted to do was inspire people. I want to offer a piece of myself to the world and hopefully at the end help everyone, myself included see that we are all the same. That the walls we build, the snarkiness we use, the b.s. we hide behind is all just a waste of time. I want people to connect with each other and live a full life and along the way share apart of my insanely weird baseball life.
My airplane/writer friend told me that I need to blog once a week. And eventually my blog entry's will get easier and those entry's will become my book. This is very scary for me. For lots of reasons....
1.) Because I don't know what to say. It's hard to write about your own life. Especially when you are very very politically incorrect (all the time) in a world where being politically correct is insanely important.
2.) I am so bad at commitment. Writing a blog entry weekly is like dieting on water and ice. I can prob do it for a minute and then I'm going to fail horribly! But then I remind myself how amazing it is when I get feedback. The good and bad. It's a learning expiriencd. I always learn from everything y'all say. And that's what it's all about. Learning. And Teaching.
If you are a blogger or writer or just a smart person feel free to send your wisdom my way!
The vulnerability it takes to write and pour your heart out into a world that sometimes isn't very careful with other peoples heart is a whole lot of pressure! Too much sometimes. But when there's a flame burning inside you it's impossible to put it out. I feel the flame inside me to write and to share.
My goal is to be open and honest. There are lots of things to share. There are some things I can't and won't share. You understand that. When it comes to robbie and his career- that is my first priority. I want minor league wives to connect with each other and fill the huge gap between minor leagues and big leagues. I want to give you an insight on what my life is like. I'll do this by sharing my stories. And sometimes hopefully the lessons I've learned along the way. I am a slow learner but lots of times I learn better on my own. So please be patient with me and let me learn those lessons. Don't feel the need to email me everything I'm doing wrong in life. I can make you a promise that the majority of the time I don't know what I am talking about. I will never claim to know it all. Never trust a person who can't spell.
If you are here looking for perfection LEAVE NOW. Otherwise, stay! And maybe learn from me and most definitely laugh at me and with me because my life never lacks excitement.
And one last thing. I am so blessed by all of your feedback. When I get emails from strangers telling me their stories about how they relate to me that is my favorite thing. When I get to tell Robbie about you guys that makes me so happy. I want your emails! I like emails better than comments especially if you want a response but both are great!
I have just a few rules. Be kind. Even if you disagree with me. One of the hardest thing to hear is when people tell me I have no right to care about the mean things people say on twitter or Instagram or on here. For a long time I believed that. I am so blessed with an amazing life. I felt a lot of shame and guilt for a long time because of it. But I've learned that is wrong. When people are mean and they try to use and abuse me or my family, I am allowed to feel sad and angry and hurt and confused. Those aren't feeling to run from but to sit in and feel and to eventually in my own time work through.
"Telling someone they can't feel sadness because someone else has it worse is like telling someone they can't feel happy because other people are happier" - someone really smart
I love that. That saying helped me work through a lot the last two years. I know lots of my baseball wife friends have deleted social media because of the shame and guilt they've felt from being attacked on social media. One day when we can all laugh about it I will share some of the comments I've received on twitter:)!
My second rule is to use this blog as a way to embrace the beauty in your own life. Sometimes people message me and tell me they wish they had my life. At first my reaction is to tell them all the bad things about this life and to let them know there's more to it than what they see on my Instagram. But that's not right either. Every life has beauty and triumph. Some more than others but you can always choose the beauty. God gave you your life and he trusted only you with it so live it to the fullest!
I'm going to spend the next few entry's talking about the minor leagues, what is was like when robbie got drafted, having a long distance relationship with a pro athlete while going to college.
HE>i
XoB
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