This morning I took ten deep breaths. Ten long slow deep breaths. I'm shaky. And teary writing this. Not because I'm sad or stressed or an emo wreck. But because I'm loved. And I feel it all around me.
I would presume that the majority of people who read this blog are friends, family or Rangers fans/family. Maybe some fellow baseball wives scattered on other teams and throughout the minor leagues. If you don't fall into one of those categories then you might not know that yesterday Robbie was optioned to Triple A.
What I thought would be a devastating phone call has turned into the exact opposite. I wanted to tweet everyone back. I wanted to respond to everyone's text message and voice mail but this is the best way for me to express me deep appreciation for the love I've been shown.
Being optioned to Triple A is a sucky blow to both of us but really minor in the grand scheme of things. Richard Durrett passed away yesterday and it doesn't seem right to mourn the loss of a job when there's a death to mourn. And that got me thinking that death is all around us. There's a staggering statistic that death is always on the rise. Women and children are being mistreated and horrible things are happening in the world. I don't find it right or okay to make any complaints about mine and Robbie's situation. I am going to Haiti in a couple of days and those sweet angels are the only thing on my mind. Yes. It does suck. Don't get me wrong but I believe it's temporary. I believe my husband is better than this. And I believe we will be back.
I even believe that this is exactly where God wants us.
I have peace about going to RoundRock. But what is really really hard for me to accept is : Love. The amount of support and love that rolled into my iPhone yesterday is really overwhelming. It makes me wonder if I even accept love well? If any of us do. That's a real hard thing for me.... To accept love. Pinterest taught me that "We accept the love we think we deserve". Now I know I don't deserve Robbie but I accept his love. And I know I don't deserve Jesus but accept his love. But you guys!!!!
If you are one of my family members who sent me videos saying you're here with me, or one of my friends who txt me saying you don't know what to say in situations like this but that you are here, or one of the people who tweeted me Bible verse after Bible verse, or called me and sat in silence and cried with me- if you are one of those people then THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. I wish there was a more intimate word to offer my gratitude. I've read every tweet, message, and email. I am extremely grateful.
If you are one of those people who asked me what you could do for me. I told you there wasn't anything you could do... But I changed my mind.
Richard Durrett did something for me an the airport one day. I was living in lala land and didn't realize the ticket counter had been calling my name for thirty minutes. Richard came up to me and told me they'd been calling my name for a seat upgrade. I had only met him once before and wasn't sure how he knew my name. All day that day people had been calling me and wanting and needing things from me. I think I had checked out for the day. Richard probably never knew how much that sweet and simple moment meant to me. When people take time out of their day to do something sweet and simple that might go unnoticed by the world around them- that is when the world really changes. Changing the world isn't all about advocacy or fancy mission trips. Yes all of that helps but changing someone's day... Those people who have the capability to change someone's day by something as simple as a tweet or advice at the airport they are the world changers. And we all have that capability. So thank you for changing my day yesterday. And thank you Richard for changing my day at the airport.
Now today it's my turn to change some peoples day:) hopefully it will start with my husbands as I pick him up from the airport and maybe it will end with one of you.
A smile, a chat, a hug, a note, an email, tweet, paying for someone's food behind you at McDonalds, a random conversation, buying someone's gas, leaving a gift card in someone's mailbox, my favorite- finding out someone's story(maybe even a homeless persons story) those are the day changers. I encourage you to change someone's day today. That's what you can do for me. I'll be doing the same. And if the moment requires it then snap a photo. So you can always remember how short life is, how precious it is, and how easy it is to brighten.
Love and peace to Everyone
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Very well said.
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